It's been a while

I haven't posted much due to the fact I have had so much on my plate this year and it hasn't been good.. Honestly this year has been awful and right now I couldn't tell you a way that could make it worse. 

The grief I feel for the loss of my brother is still huge, my parents have got divorced and it is such a messy divorce, and my whole family is falling apart. Despite this I still,passed uni with a 2:2. Not as good as I would have hoped but considering what I have gone through this year, it is a miracle I haven't had a break down and wanted to give up. I am so proud that I managed to keep going and pass my first year. 

Because of all of this my tolerance to people's rubbish has decreased a lot, i have found myself snapping a lot at people because a lot of the things they complain about aren't the end of the world.

I will try to start to write more posts cause  I think this will be a good way to let things out and means I'll not bottle it all up too much.

Venting

So it has been a month since I have last posted and so much has happened in that time. It is not good things, which is how I had hoped my year would go.
I know that usually people would write a post to get attention but I just want to write this to vent a little bit.

First of all I lost my brother on the 22nd January, he was fishing and one freak wave took him into sea and he can't be found. this is the most heart breaking thing that has happened. None of us had ever expected this to happen and we can't have closure with a funeral. With the weather conditions now in Devon and Cornwall it makes me angry when people are risking their lives going to the sea fronts to get a picture of the waves whereas my brother went on a calm day to do something he loves, fishing and yet he was taken from us at 23, it has been hard for our whole family and all of my brothers friends and the weather conditions are not helping our grief.
Next I have found out that my great aunties cancer has got worse and my other aunties brother has been diagnosed with cancer and my Grandad has to be retested for cancer in three months. With knowing this we will be seeing them a lot more to ensure we have lots of time with them.
To top off all of this, my parents are going to be splitting up soon, with all of this I am struggling with my work load as I can't really concentrate as I have so much on my mind.
Why do bad things have to happen, its just so hard

New semester

So after almost a month back at home in Cornwall for Christmas, I'm leaving to go back to Cheltenham for my second semester in university and I couldn't be more excited!

I'm looking forward to seeing all of my friends again, paying the second half of my deposit of my house to finalize everything and also learning so many new things in my classes. 

Choosing to go to university was one of the best choices I have made and I am so excited to learning more things creating more memories and getting stuck into my course that I enjoy a lot! 

Unlucky me

So it is just typical that I have got Ill a week before I go back up to uni, I was ill for the first week also.

It is just my luck I begin my time at home ill and I'm finishing my time at home ill.

It is as if I have no immune system at all! Anyone got any ideas to help make my insides healthier so I can avoid being ill a lot? 

Beginning of a New Year

So, I thought I would write a post today to begin the new year, write down my resolutions and tell you all of my top memories from 2013.

To start off I will tell you my new years resolutions. I do tend to think of some to start each new year, but I either forget them or I never stick to them. This year, however, will be different. This year I am going to start a new blog for my work and designs and my views on things. I feel if I do this I can reflect on my accomplishments during university and also in my life. I would like to become a better person and a more confident person within myself and I will only be able to do this if I can see the progress I am making. The next point is I am determined to loose at least a stone this will help me in my goal of becoming more confident. This year I will also start to save money, I would really love to buy myself a new car when I finish university and also new clothes. In my mission to become confident I must also become a more confident person and so I will need to change my views and become more positive. This will take time but I am very focused on doing this. My last resolution is to create more memories with my friends and family. 
To begin this new year, I am looking forward to trying to achieve these goals for myself. 

Instead of explaining these memories, I will just list them. I am only going to mention a few as there are too many to list, this year, however, I am going to get a jar and write down all of my memories so I have something to look forward to reading in 2015. 
- My 18th
- Finishing college
- Getting into university
- Zante 2013
- Starting university and meeting my new friends. 
- Madam Tussauds 
-Christmas


I am never good at remembering them all, which is why I am going to write down my memories this year. 


Happy new year to you all! 

Two months in

So I moved in just over two months ago and it has been amazing. This past week my flat mates and I have had to start to look for houses for the second year. Although this may seem very early, it is very necessary if we want to find a good house for a good price in a good area. This should have been a very nice thing to do with friends as we will be living with them for at least two years, however it has started to be a very unpleasant experience and it is making people upset as others have been going behind backs. I am only just going through this now and so I would not be able to give any advice, I will however write a post to get through any difficulties in choosing a house and how to get through any issues with your friends. 

Apart from that obvious problem, university is amazing, I love my lectures, it has been hard work, but this is giving me industry experience which is very necessary for the line I want to go in to. 

I have a job as well, this is difficult as i need to juggle my uni work load and my job on the weekends, it is hard, but I am very glad I have a job as money is very, very tight. If I didn't have my job I really wouldn't cope with living costs, food and uni books etc. 

I think I may start a second blog soon for my opinions and my work on there. It will show my work and I can also write my opinions down about importance issues that are current in the world. 

Please continue to read my blog and get others to read too, it will be greatly appreciated! Thank you! 

First month of uni

So my last post was on the day before me moving up to Cheltenham for uni, and now I have been up here for just over a month and I have to say it was such an amazing decision. I was nervous about meeting my flat mates, however, they are so lovely and good friends now. On the first night me and a few from my flat went over to next doors flat and got to know each other and so it was instant instead of taking our time to know people, I definitely think at this is one of the best ways to do it. It feels like I have known everyone for so much longer than just a month!

Freshers week was very good as well, we met more people and got to know each other more and more. There were so many things on in freshers like the move in party, the tshirt tour, the geek night, the beach party, and the freshers ball, just to name a few. 

Lectures properly started on the second week of being here and so far I am enjoying them so much, which is so good considering I will be studying for the next three years!

I have a job at the weekends which is very tiring as I have uni all week and then have to work, but I need the money and that is how I will have to think of it.

I will try to make more posts but I have been very busy recently, but please comment saying what you like or if you want me to write about something specific, thank you!